Isabelle
This week has been a bit up and down, I've had some really, really good days and some really really bad days. Today for example, was one of those bad days. I was all on my own at home, had no study or work to do so had a great lazy day just watching movies and doing nothing of value. I went to the supermarket and got myself a few treats, which ideally should last the week, except, they haven't. I wasn't hungry, but I was bored, there was no one to witness me being a piggy and there is something about tim tams that i just can't say no to. So that's the whole pack gone, along with heaps more food that I wasn't hungry for, or craving, it was just there and for some reason self control and reasoning didn't kick in. But now the guilt has kicked in, knowing i've let myself down and I'm actually feeling pretty sick since all that food too! But I also need to remind myself that tomorrow is another day, and there is no point dwelling on today. It's been a good reminder - the guilt and sick feeling really isn't worth gorging myself.
This week has been a bit up and down, I've had some really, really good days and some really really bad days. Today for example, was one of those bad days. I was all on my own at home, had no study or work to do so had a great lazy day just watching movies and doing nothing of value. I went to the supermarket and got myself a few treats, which ideally should last the week, except, they haven't. I wasn't hungry, but I was bored, there was no one to witness me being a piggy and there is something about tim tams that i just can't say no to. So that's the whole pack gone, along with heaps more food that I wasn't hungry for, or craving, it was just there and for some reason self control and reasoning didn't kick in. But now the guilt has kicked in, knowing i've let myself down and I'm actually feeling pretty sick since all that food too! But I also need to remind myself that tomorrow is another day, and there is no point dwelling on today. It's been a good reminder - the guilt and sick feeling really isn't worth gorging myself.
I
know my cues, I know when I'm hungry and when I can stop eating, I just
need to remember to acknowledge that instead of ignoring it.
Unfortunately, I have put on 200g this week but this little reminder to pay attention to my feelings has been beneficial!
Lilly
Lilly
This has been mostly a good week however, there's
been some anxiety and a feeling of not fitting in. I have found that I
am applying reframing to many situations, but
not really my food. This is because food is becoming more and more
neutral. Instead of feeling bad about something, remedying
by eating too much and then focussing all my negativity and guilt on my
weight
and ‘eating problems’ I have begun to be conscious of my emotions and
separately
conscious of eating, even if I choose to have a little too much. I
have spent years and years speaking harshly to myself for overeating
rather
than being kind to myself because I feel down about something and for
once in
my life, my emotions and my food are mostly separated. Of course I have
fallen
over a couple of times and tried to drown this week’s issues with
food, but there is no despair or helplessness in this. In fact, I have
never
felt happier and more in control. Even when I feel impatient and down
about the
time that it will take to reach my ideal weight, I can look and see that
I am
already about ¼ of the way there. I am feeling more and more freedom
with food and it is literally liberating me in all aspects of my life.
101 yay!
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